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(no subject) [May. 21st, 2009|10:41 am]
crazywhite_girl
Grrrr, I hate Macy's and Clinique and Elizabeth Arden. They strung me along for over a month and didn't have the balls to just call me and tell me to fuck off. Whatever. I'll just go along with what Matt said that they probably all hired people that didn't know shit about makeup because they could pay them less. So being educated and knowing shit is a bad thing it seems. I shouldn't have ever gone to school wasting time and money for nothing. I don't get enough freelancing work. I miss being in school. If Noel ever sends me the class schedule I'll go back maybe 1 or 2 days a week to brush up on some stuff and get more practice. Brittany said she wanted to go back too. For all the money we spent on Urban it would be good to take advantage of the whole you have a year to go back and retake anything you want deal. Plus it'll give me something to do so I don't sit around all day depressed.



Matt and I's happy gay 1 month anniversary was yesterday. It doesn't seem like a month already, it's gone by fast. He went home to New York this morning for 4 days. I told him to bring me back something cool. My mom is a nerd and asked for a Nathan's hot dog. Mmmmm that's gonna be tasty when it's a bunch of hours old Things are going really well with us. He said last week I almost told him the L word when I was drunk. I'm glad I didn't because I don't remember shit from that night. Doh. The next day he asked me if I did and I said yes. He wanted me to tell him but I kept putting it off cuz it's a big deal and I was scared. I was afraid my feelings wouldn't be reciprocated. Well I told him on Monday and he said it back  yay.



He's gonna help me out by maybe giving me a job. I have to go take an alcohol servers/selling class. In Texas it's the TABC I dunno what it is here. It would make sense if it was the NMABC but this shit hole doesn't make sense. He's gonna give me the papers for that on Monday and if I pass everything I'll have an interview with him. I think that would be weird but just cuz I'm his girlfriend doesn't mean I'd get special treatment. I don't want that cuz then everyone else would hate me. I never wanted to be a server but shit I'm desperate and it's up for grabs so I might as well. That would suck if I did a shitty job in the interview and he didn't hire me. Aaaaawkward.



I'm going to have sushi tonight with Darren ..m/  Matt won't eat sushi here because he's a spoiled little bastard and doesn't trust sushi in the desert. I've had it plenty times here and there are quite a few really good places. It'll be nice to see Darren again, he's a good friend and we haven't hung out since he took me for sushi on my birthday. Yummmmmmmmm.



Okaaay I'm hungry I'm gonna have some cereal. Cinnamon Toast Crunch ftw!



Laters.
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"I will put glass in her food" [May. 5th, 2009|06:23 pm]
crazywhite_girl
Hahaha Matt is so funny. He runs and owns a catering business here. For every party he does he gets half up front and his customer signs a contract saying the deposit is non-refundable, unless there's a valid emergency like a death or something like that. He always gets these notarized and they hold up in court. Well this douche bag couple changed their mind and wanted to cancel. He was up front and explained what they already went through when they signed the contract that the deposit was non-refundable. They kept calling him last night at like 10:30 and talking shit to him. The wife went too far and said his mother did a shitty job of raising him. Nobody talks about Matt's parents (recap- they were killed in a car accident 3 years ago). He was professional with her until she went there and he basically told her off and hung up on her. Her husband called back again saying she was a stupid broad and blah blah blah asking if there was another time they could change it to. Matt said the only other time slot he had was 4:00 on Friday but he would put glass in his wifes food. Hahaha I dunno I thought that was hilarious. Stupid fuckers keep harassing him and saying they are gonna sue him and shit. He knows the judge and never has lost a case in small claims court over this because a contract is a contract. People are just dumb. Matt rules tho. They said he was doing a shitty job and he just told them whoever referred them to him didn't think so. Anyways, yeah haha.

So I decided to go into Macy's today to talk to the cosmetics manager in person rather than trying to call her again. I figured going in in person would show more initiative than calling anyways. She asked me if I'd rather work for Clinique or Estee Lauder. I said honestly Clinique cuz I've actually used their products and no nothing about Estee Lauder except they own everyone. She said she'd give my number to the regional manager and she'd call me on Thursday. I hope she does. If no I will call Claire (the cosmetics manager), she gave me her cell number. I'll call her on Friday if I don't hear from this regional manager by Thursday. I just really want this fucking job. I know it's not exactly what I want to do with my life but at least it's a job that has something to do with the field I'm interested in. They care more about sales than anything but I'd still get to put makeup on people which is what I love doing.

Oh yeah also Matt said he wants to branch out his company and get other services involved. He wants me to be "his" makeup artist. So like if he was catering a wedding he could tell them that he has a makeup artist and that would be me. I would get a lot of clients that way. He wants me to make a copy of my portfolio that he can show people. I need to get more stuff in there. I wish I had more female friends that I could practice on cuz my portfolio isn't all that big yet. But that's pretty cool. He caters tons of parties and does weddings and like quincenaras (I know I butchered that one) and that would be cool to get a lot of freelance work that way which I would find more fun that working at Clinique just trying to sell stuff all day. But I just want a job and a paycheck so I can eventually get out of my moms house cuz every day almost something gets to me. She'll get pissed off about something she wants me to do but doesn't tell me. So I get yelled at for not doing something she never told me to do in the first place. Also I feel like a tool being 26 and still living with my mom. I've had a hard couple years but now I finally have my license back and I'm off probation so I have some freedom. I never wanted to live in Albuquerque but if I get a job here it'll keep me here and I am not gonna leave Matt. He asked me if somewhere down the road he decided to move back to New York if I would move with him and that is a possibility. Long way down the road tho, not anytime soon.

Ok I'm gonna go veg out in bed and play the Sonic Mega Collection for PS2 that Matt bought me. Yaaaaay flashback to the 90s. Fun! I'm not impressed with the new Sonic Unleashed game that recently came out. Old Sonic is waaay better.

xoxo
Renee
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oops I'm drunk [Apr. 22nd, 2009|04:57 pm]
crazywhite_girl
I'm drunk but it's happy hour, ok?  



So life has been so good to me lately, I guess Karma is finally doing me good instead of bad. I have a wonderful, amazing, super great boyfriend. His name is Matt and he's from Brooklyn. He's in Abq because the cost of living is cheap as shit here and 3 years ago his parents were killed in a drunk driving accident (the other car was drunk). He is the guardian of his 16 year old sister. So he's had to deal with a lot. He has to be the strong one because if his sister needs to cry to someone he needs to be there for her. He was saying it sucks he doesn't have anyone to cry to when shit gets hard for him. My mom said he could think of her as an aunt or something if he needed someone to cry to. And I'm not some cunt that thinks a guy is a pussy if he shows emotion. I think it's awesome that they show their feelings. But yeah, Matt is great. I'm so happy he found me. He said he just hoped his parents were proud of him and he thinks his mom talked to God and he brought me into his life



So I had my interview at Macy's today. It was a group interview with 2 other girls. I think I am ahead because I have a portfolio and am certified as a make up artist here. I went to school and learned a lot and have experience. They train everyone but I think I'm ahead of this other girl that doesn't have any cosmetics experience. When I was in the interview my mom was in Macy's talking to a girl at Origins and she was telling her all the stuff they don't mention in the interviews. So I got to hear that. And the manager also told me she'd pass on my info to the cosmetics manager. So now I'm just waiting for her to contact me for a 2nd interview. The girl at Origins said they need like 7 people to work cosmetics counters. They train you and say you don't need experience but I have experience, my make up certification and a portfolio so that'll be good to show I think.



I'm gonna go be drunk now and talk to my Brooklyn baby.


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Jobby jobs [Apr. 16th, 2009|09:08 pm]
crazywhite_girl
So I finished my classes at Urban Academy last week. I'm sad about that. I really liked being in school again and learning about something I love and have a major passion for. I still have Saturday to go do makeup in the salon. I was getting kinda depressed not being in school. Today I forced myself to get out and turn in my application to Sephora. I wish I would have done this sooner cuz they just hired 4 people last week. Doh It's ok. I walked into Macy's and asked a lady at Estee Lauder or something if they were hiring. She said they [Macy's] were actually looking for 2 people to work at a cosmetics counter. She asked if I had sales experience and I said yes and told her I just finished learning make up at Urban Academy. She told me the website to go to to apply and got my number to give the manager. So the manager is going to call me in the morning. I need to not be dead asleep when he/she calls and just silence my phone. I'm really hoping I at least get an interview and if I do I totally nail it. I need a job and even tho working at a counter in a department store is not close to my dream job at least it's in my field. Originally I had planned on working at either MAC or Sephora then doing freelance on the side. Now I really don't care where I work as long as I'd be doing what I love.



Stefan is an unreliable stoner that I am getting tired of. It turns out he had gone by Marble to get my phone early Friday morning so when I called them they did not have it. He didn't call me (he has my moms number) and tell me he had my phone so when I called T-Mobile I assumed it was stolen and reported it as so. Then I went and bought a new phone.... ok I think I wrote about this already. Yes I did, I got the G1 and it's magical. He told me to take it back. I didn't want to cuz it's an amazing, awesome, magical phone. So this is just something else to add to the list of him being a stupid stoner. The last straw is next Thursday. He knows he has to take me to see Plain White T's to redeem himself. I still get angry when I hear the All American Rejects cuz I missed them to see him that night he stood me up. Grrrr. I'm just mad at him in general. We were supposed to go to dinner last night and he didn't answer any of my texts. He's really smart and intelligent but I think he uses all his brain up on work so he's just a stupid stoner when he's not at work. So if next Thursday fails I'm done with him.



I am going to sit here and be bored and kinda lonely and drink my gin and tonic and listen to Irish punk and maybe find something to do. Not gonna stay up too late tho cuz the manager of Macy's is going to call me in the morning and I need to be able to wake up and answer my phone. Sounds easy enough but we all know I'm NOT a morning person



Good night. And good luck.


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When you see my face I hope it gives you hell [Apr. 6th, 2009|02:32 pm]
crazywhite_girl
Ahh Mondays. Kinda like a Sunday for me cuz I don't have class until Tuesday. I'm so sad tho this is my last week of class  :( I love it so much I'm going to miss it. I'm gonna talk to Noel and ask if I can apprentice under her. She's so awesome and we get along great I think she'd let me. That way I can keep on learning from her even after I graduate and am done with her class.



I need to do 2 bridal looks and 1 fantasy by tomorrow. I'm going to do bridal on my mom and this girl Kaleena and then fantasy on my friend Liz cuz she's actually my friend and would let me do a "weird" or creative fantasy look on her.



I hope I can get some paying jobs eventually. I wanted to work for MAC after I graduate but they are very competitive and it's hard to get a job for them. I basically wanted to work there to build up my kit with the 60% discount but after I graduate I'll get my Pro card which is 40% off, that's better than my Student Pro card that's 20% off. But I had an idea that I should try to get a job at Sephora. That way I'd learn about sooooo many different brands and products rather than just one brand at MAC. I'd be working in the mall which I never wanted to do but it's right by the entrance/exit so I wouldn't have to venture deep into the mall to get to work. So I suppose my plan as of now is to hopefully get a job at Sephora then freelance doing whatever on the side. I'll still volunteer for events that my school sponsors to get more practice and have more to put in my resume.



Aaaaaaaaaaaanyways, I'm mad at my boy person. He was spinning at a club at some art opening thing and I was gonna go see him. He was gonna give me a ride since I don't drive. I decided to pick him over seeing The All American Rejects (one of my favorite bands ever). Well he didn't text me back or pick up his phone so I got all dressed up for nothing. I'm pretty pissed at him. I'm sure he has a reasonable explanation but I'm still upset about it. My mom is too. She really likes him so her being mad at him is a very bad thing. She can be scary when she's mad, she was a teacher for 30 years so she can do the angry teacher voice VERY well.  :P



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xoxo

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so so busy! [Mar. 31st, 2009|12:11 pm]
crazywhite_girl
*breathes* Wow, it seems just now I am finally able to take a deep breath! I've been insanely busy with make up jobs. Friday was the 4th Annual Ronald McDonald House Charity event "Girls Night Out". My school had an area doing mini manicures, hair and mini make overs that Brittany and I went to. That was a lot of good practice to do make up on all ages of women and all different face shapes and skin types. We did that for about 4 hours and it was pretty fun and good experience. A few women even gave me tips!



When we were leaving Joe (the dean) came up and asked us if we could do make up for a Miss America pageant on Saturday, I didn't really wanna do it cuz that would be my only free day before I had to do the film but Brittany talked me into it. It was the preliminaries for Miss New Mexico. So I did 2 girls' make up for that then came home and went to bed at like 9 cuz I had to be up at 4AM to be on set by 5:30AM the next morning.



So Sunday I was assistant make up artist on set for a indie film called Guile, doing special effects make up. Dayan (the key make up artist for the film) made a slit throat prosthetic and a bullet wound for the victim. I helped paint them and touch them up throughout the day. Yesterday she had to leave by 7:30 AM so I was the key make up artist all day. From 5:30 AM and it wrapped up at around 8PM. Fuck that was HARD. As a make up artist for a film you spend A LOT of time doing NOTHING. Just waiting around for someone to need you. It was hard but I survived. And I loved being in charge and not having someone else tell me what to do, I got to do what I thought would look good. Got to bloody the actors up which was quite fun   I did 2 bullet wounds to the chest for one guy, and had to keep 2 scratches on this other actors face thruout the movie but had to remove them and redo them several times. I did beauty make up on one of the mobster girls even tho I was only responsible for special effects, I just love doing beauty make up. It was a really awesome experience and I will be in the credits.



I'm so glad I've had all these wonderful opportunities so far and I'm not even done with school yet! I'm already networking and know quite a few people and they think I'm really talented. It's a really great feeling to be doing something I love and doing awesome at it.



So my career as a make up artist will take off sometime and hopefully I'll get some paid jobs. The 2 events and movie were great experience but not paid, just REALLY good things to have on my resume after I graduate. I might help Dayan with a wedding coming up which will actually pay and weddings are a good way to get A LOT of money. Since tens of thousands of dollars are spent on weddings, what's another $500 or so for make up? Which is one of the most important things in a wedding.



Ahhh I'm so so sore. After working two 15 hour days back to back I'm still feelin' it even tho I got a good 10 hours of sleep or so last night.



I have to do a presentation on a 1920s icon, I chose Clara Bow. I haven't had time but I'm just gonna find a You Tube video of a clip of one of her silent films and make some note cards to give a 5 minute presenation then apply makeup to probably Betty in the Clara Bow "look". It shouldn't be too hard.



I'm so proud of myself for doing all this stuff and I've come a long way in just 6 weeks. 3 weeks ago I put makeup on Brittany and it looked god awful. I didn't know what I was doing and was scared. I was terrified to put mascara on someone for the first time and now I can do it in a snap and it doesn't make me nervous at all. I've been having fun experimenting with my own make up and everyone always says it looks sick. \m/ Yes, I'm amazing.



Now better get to work on my project. I'm sure Noel would cut me some slack since she knew I was insanely busy with everything but it shouldn't be too hard, I've already read up a lot on Clara Bow I just need to make myself some note cards and find a You Tube video.



Hope everything is well with everyone, I'm glad I survived my 32987492 hours of work over the last 4 days!



xoxo

Renee
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Brrrrr it's coooooooold [Dec. 5th, 2008|12:37 am]
crazywhite_girl
omg it's cold! Weather.com says it's 26* but feels like 15*  Fuck that! I like the cold but not the fucking cold. My back and neck hurt a lot too. That happens when the weather changes a lot. I'm like a fuckin old lady with arthritis. I'll probably get arthritis. My grandma, mom and both aunts have it



I know I haven't written in forever. At the end of September I started getting depressed. Then it got worse and worse and worse. Nothing happened to cause the depression it just came out of fuckin no where. I was in Austin and happy to get to see all my friends and it just happened. I came back home and just felt shitty. It was hard for me to do simple tasks like take a shower or get out of bed. My anxiety was horrible, I'd have panic attacks if the fucking phone rang and was terrified to go out into public or talk to anyone. I saw my psychiatrist and he put me on Geodon. I read about it and it's for mania and mixed episodes. I had no mania, I was fucking depressed. I stayed on it for over a month and it didn't do shit. He put me on Buspar for the anxiety and it also didn't do shit. Like 3 weeks ago he put me on Trileptol and Seroquel and I didn't notice any difference. Xanax has been the only thing that ever helped my anxiety but with the Geodon it pretty much made me pass out. I quit the buspar cuz it didn't help at all. About a week ago I started feeling better. I didn't think about dying and killing myself 24/7. I'm glad that went away it was really starting to scare me. I tried taking xanax again and it no longer makes me pass out. I'm so glad because my anxiety and social anxiety is so terrible. I went Christmas shopping with my mom today and was in a good mood all day I had completely forgotten what it's like to be happy, or at least not miserable. Fuck bipolar and fuck depression and fuck anxiety. It scares me how worthless I become. At least I wasn't working or in school because I would have probably fucked those things up big time because how completely disabled I was.



So anyways, I'm really hoping my mood stays like this. I'm scared about getting depressed again. I know it will happen because thats how bipolar is When I'm like that NOTHING helps or makes me feel better except being asleep. I finally have a really good psychologist now tho. She's helped me a lot. We've been doing cognitive therapy to help me deal with social anxiety and get me to stop having irrational thoughts about being terrified to be around people. I'm glad I'm feeling better because I have a date tomorrow This will be my first social event in months. I'm kinda nervous but excited. Then on Saturday my mom and I are going to the annual Parrot Head Christmas party. I have been freaking out about that since I found out about it but I think I'll be able to handle it. Plus there will be booze and booze always makes it easier to be social



Hmmm so that's everything in a huge nutshell lol. I think I'm gonna go shopping with Adam on Monday. I am retarded and spent money I didn't have a long time ago on stuff at Express and then lost the receipt so I could only get a store gift card. I lost it then recently found it so I'm gonna get some stylish warm clothes which I desperately need. I also am going to try getting the right size lip ring for like the 5th time. kthxbye


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Viva La White Girl [Sep. 17th, 2008|02:40 am]
crazywhite_girl
I never knew how hard it would be dating an alcoholic. I mean like an addict. An alcoholic that's more like a meth head or crack addict it's THAT bad they need alcohol. It's been pretty scary finding out. Especially because I was going to flip turn my life upside down for him and move to Houston. I did and do love him very much but I love the sober Eddie. Drunk Eddie is a scary retarded monster face bitch fucker that I want locked up in a padded room. After lying to me multiple times I found out he's checking himself into a 6 week detox program. But I've found out he's lied to me about countless things already. I really hope he's telling me the thuth. He said he was detoxing in his room for 2 days (after lying to me texting me he was in the hospital which freaked me out, I called every hospital in town looking for him scared to death and they had not heard of him). I asked him one question to answer honestly to me. Did he ever love me. He said yes. I know drunks and addicts are good liars but everything he did for me seemed to really be out of love. We even talked about being crazy and going to Vegas just to get fucking married and fuck everyone else but his last relationship he wanted to marry her in Vegas so yeah that wouldn't have happened.



I won't see him for about 6 weeks or so. I told him I'd be there for him cuz I will despite the gallons of tears I've cried over him and how much pain he's caused me. I love him so fucking much and I've been thru enough to know what true love is. FUCK LOVE. Is it really worth it? I think it is for every silly little moment that just makes you feel nothing else in the world but love for that person at that moment in time.



I still don't understand how an addict's mind works. It doesn't make sense to me to steal and lie and do horrible things just to get your "fix". I didn't even know alcoholics could be as bad as coke head or hard drug users. Anyways, now that I'm crying for the first time today just write writing on I'm going to finish my delicious Jasmin tea (yes I'm really sick on top of being sick in the heart) and go back to sleep. I woke up at 3 being pissed thinking it was 3PM but it was too dark and I quickly realized it was 3AM. Ah silly me. Anyways yes I love my friends and I cannot wait to be with them <3

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UR SO GAY [Sep. 5th, 2008|12:05 am]
crazywhite_girl
I hope you hang yourself with your H&M scarf

While jacking off listening to Mozart

You bitch and moan about LA

Wishing you were in the rain reading Hemingway

You don’t eat meat

And drive electrical cars

You’re so indie rock it’s almost an art

You need SPF 45 just to stay alive



You’re so gay and you don’t even like boys

No you don’t even like

No you don’t even like

No you don’t even like boys

You’re so gay and you don’t even like boys

No you don’t even like

No you don’t even like

No you don’t even like…



You’re so sad maybe you should buy a happy meal

You’re so skinny you should really Super Size the deal

Secretly you’re so amused

That nobody understands you

I’m so mean cause I cannot get you outta your head

I’m so angry cause you’d rather MySpace instead

I can’t believe I fell in love with someone that wears more makeup than…



You’re so gay and you don’t even like boys

No you don’t even like

No you don’t even like

No you don’t even like boys

You’re so gay and you don’t even like boys

No you don’t even like

No you don’t even like

No you don’t even like…



You walk around like you’re oh so debonair

You pull ‘em down and there’s really nothing there

I wish you would just be real with me



You’re so gay and you don’t even like boys

No you don’t even like

No you don’t even like

No you don’t even like boys

You’re so gay and you don’t even like boys

No you don’t even like

No you don’t even like

Oh no no no no no no no

You’re so gay and you don’t even like boys

No you don’t even like

No you don’t even like

No you don’t even like boys

You’re so gay and you don’t even like boys

No you don’t even like

No you don’t even like

No you don’t even like…
PENIS




I'm no longer happier than I've been since I've lived in this fast shithole wasteland (it's not as great as Vicki makes it look. Seriously, FUCK New Mexico. FUCK the desert. FUCK IT ALL.  I got dumped because "it's not you, it's me."  He was an alcoholic and fell off the wagon. My mother said it was my fault. It was my fault because I drink sometimes and sometimes I have in front of him ONLY BECAUSE HE SAID IT WAS OK AND HE WAS COMFORTABLE WITH IT. Hahaha no really I did hold a rocket launcher to his head and force him to have those 5 Irish car bombs. Then another 10 beers. I'm so stupid. 
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I just sneezed 3 times [Aug. 16th, 2008|01:04 pm]
crazywhite_girl
Brutal!



I'm going to my first baseball game tonight. I think. My cars check engine light is on and I don't wanna be driving it around with it on. My car fixy place is closed today. Hopefully Eddie's friends can give us a ride or something. My mom was gonna let us use her car but she has to go somewhere today. Fiddlesticks! I hope we get to go. I hate baseball but I like beer and the boy said he'd buy me all I wanted so woopty woop!



We went to Texas Roadhouse last night for dinner since he got paid yesterday. Yum yum!



I think a fuckin spider bit my arm last night. I have a hurty bite on it today



the end fuckers. Oh yeah I love hot naked sluts! And hot naked classy ladies! Naked is just good however those babies roll

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fuckin can't sleep again [Aug. 14th, 2008|02:15 am]
crazywhite_girl
Never put ink in your mouth.

Ok so I can't fucking sleep. I didn't put ink in my mouth I was writing a masterpiece in 6 words. I don't get the whole baby shoe thing. Maybe I'm not smart enough. Baby shoes sure are fuckin cute tho. I hate this insomnia bullshit. I can sleep all fucking day from depression and boredom and then I cannot sleep at night when I'm supposed to. I have to wake up at 8 too. That's in less than 6 hours. I'm having Eddie use my car to take me to an appointment so I don't have to ride the stupid bus. I'm so sick of the bus. Grrrrrrrrr. Hates it. I wanna leave this place so bad. Ok I'm gonna play poker now I have nothing else to say. Fuck this.
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Thank you Sierra Nevada [Aug. 7th, 2008|02:02 am]
crazywhite_girl
I've been drinking my aunts leftover beer that she left when she went back to Oregon after her visit here. Man, gross stuff. Not gross like Bud Lite gross but weird micro brews from Santa Fe and gross wheat beers. But yeah I finished them off and then promised myself I'd let myself drink my Sierra Nevada (I think it's good, if you don't then drink my beer pee ). Right now I'm on a Fat Tire kick tho. I go thru phases because I get tired of the same old thing. Like I do with men. Sorry Eddie. hehehe Anyways.



I am supposed to be writing in journals more but when I write my hand starts to hurt cuz I'm so damn aggressive. So I will write in these "blogs" which are apparently one of the roots of all that is evil. Boopity boop boop boooooooop. Beer rules. Sorry I'm drinking by myself tonight. I dunno how that happened. Uhhhhhhhhhh fuck. I just wanted some beers. And I had plenty. Here's some emoticons I love! (they are from DeviantNation.com ((which you should join)) to those reading my myspace and Live Journal)



                           



Ok maybe more later. Nobody EVER get the Nokia 5300 XpressMusic phone. It's the WORST phone I've ever had. Yeah it's pretty and works as an MP3 player but who doesn't have an iPod these days anyways? (I don't really want you to answer that). This is the 3rd one of it's kind I've had because the first 2 crapped out in shitty ways and I had to exchange them. Unfortunately I couldn't exchange them for a better phone. I'm just waiting til I can upgrade. It sucks cuz I read a lot of good reviews about it. The camera fucking sucks on it. My last phone, a MotoRIZR, had an amazing camera with print out quality pictures. Everything about it was pretty great except it not being able to handle being dropped in the bath tub whilst trying to take nudie pics, haha totally kidding there buddy.



I'm tired. Goodnight assholes.


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I'm completey radical [Jul. 23rd, 2008|10:25 pm]
crazywhite_girl
I went to the shooting range today with my BFF Adam for the first time. I was fucking AWESOME. Like seriously bad ass. It was a lot of fun!

I love my doggie.

I love my boyfriend.

I love that my boyfriend got me a legitimate cop of CS3 from work.

ummm I love my new glasses.

I love my hair.

I love beer.

I love my LJ friends I have been neglecting for like 28 years.

<3

oh yeah and I FUCKING LOVE POKER BECAUSE I AM SO GREAT AT IT WOOPTY WOOP NIGGA WHAT
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Jake! [Jul. 22nd, 2008|05:08 pm]
crazywhite_girl
I got a little dog and named him Jake! He's a 6 year old Pomeranian that has had a really rough life but he's loving it now! He loves and lives for me 100%  He is completely happy in my lap or in my bed nursing on his bunny. I'm glad we got him and I'm glad he's happy and safe with us. His previous bitch cunt evil whore twat skank of an owner decided she didn't want him when she found out he wasn't a puppy. What a shit thing to do. I think having an adult dog that looks like a puppy is perfect! He's such a sweetie too, I love him









and then before he was groomed, very poofy!!







 

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Jake! [Jul. 22nd, 2008|05:08 pm]
crazywhite_girl
I got a little dog and named him Jake! He's a 6 year old Pomeranian that has had a really rough life but he's loving it now! He loves and lives for me 100%  He is completely happy in my lap or in my bed nursing on his bunny. I'm glad we got him and I'm glad he's happy and safe with us. His previous bitch cunt evil whore twat skank of an owner decided she didn't want him when she found out he wasn't a puppy. What a shit thing to do. I think having an adult dog that looks like a puppy is perfect! He's such a sweetie too, I love him



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and then before he was groomed, very poofy!!

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Jake! [Jul. 22nd, 2008|05:08 pm]
crazywhite_girl
I got a little dog and named him Jake! He's a 6 year old Pomeranian that has had a really rough life but he's loving it now! He loves and lives for me 100%  He is completely happy in my lap or in my bed nursing on his bunny. I'm glad we got him and I'm glad he's happy and safe with us. His previous bitch cunt evil whore twat skank of an owner decided she didn't want him when she found out he wasn't a puppy. What a shit thing to do. I think having an adult dog that looks like a puppy is perfect! He's such a sweetie too, I love him


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Howdy strangers! [Aug. 23rd, 2007|03:24 pm]
crazywhite_girl
Hey guess what? I'm alive! Yes it's been a while, figured I'd let you in on Renee's whacky life

People drive so great in this town! No really, it's quite impressive.

Speaking of sarcasm, 90% of the humans in this shit town are fucking morons. They are NOT smarter than a 5th grader. They don't even understand the concept of sarcasm. I try to keep my mouth shut because people just don't get what I'm trying to say. I wish I was dumb sometimes so I'd fit in more. So I guess I offended a few tards at the bar last night because they took me seriously. One tard was REALLY beginning to piss me off saying how sarcastic people are so annoying and it's so wrong and durrr durrr durrrr so I was like "Look dude, I'm so sorry. That was wrong of me, I've had a bad day and I'm really sorry bs bs bs". Since he was a tard he believed me. HAHA JOKES ON YOU DOUCHEY!!! 

I noticed his hottttttttttt   hot hot : friend next to him and was like *drools* After they kicked us out of the bar we were chillin outside and I was like ME WANT MORE BEER!! So we all went back to Justins place to kick it and drink some more. I love boys with the guns. I always want me tickets to the gun show. I asked if I could feel his arms and *shivers* oh fucking wow. Then find out he's a fucking FIREMAN We talked for a few hours and I just kept falling in drunk love with this guy. I told him how I respect fireman more than anyone, what they do is just amazing and they really are heros. Then I hugged him and thanked him. And he smelled sooooo good. Another one of my weaknesses are boys that smell wonderful. So I kept molesting his arms and hugging him and smelling him and started to feel creepy lol. We went inside and I started tackling those bastard rubix cubes. I tossed it over to him and watched him solve that shit in like 2 minutes.  :eek:

I kinda wanted him to say something fucked up to piss me off because I'm like omg I love you marry me lol. He doesn't like cheese lol. Or fruity things, he likes chocolate.

We were inside laying down on the floor just talking about death metal and music and I'm so insecure I can never ya know "make the first move" but I couldn't stand it so I put my hands on the sides of his face and kissed him. He kissed me back.  I wouldn't have wanted to be anywhere else in the world than with this man of my fucking dreams that just showed up into my life. I was like "How bout we take this party to the bedroom!" So yeah we did end up bangin, we were both drunk and just so into each other. It made me very happy. Then he held me all night, I was cold but his body was so warm. *swoons* I felt so good. I love being held so tightly, he held my hands and petted my back and arms. :) When we woke up yeah lol we banged again. And were laughing our asses off about dumb weird whacky stuff and took a little nap again and he held me. It was a wonderful ending to a stressful fucked up dramatic day. And it was a wonderful beginning to more drama and bullshit.

I've had so much bad luck with boys/pathetic worthless assholes in this town. I don't wanna get so attached to him so fast but it's like we can totally just hang out and bullshit and not just have sex and that's it. So yeah I just really want someone to have and to hold and to care about me. Yeah it sounds cheesy but I miss that feeling.

He has today off from fighting evil fires in this horrendous heat. I'm gonna take him some food and chocolate and maybe some booze. His dad is pretty fuckin cool too. I'm happy. I hope it lasts. I've always thought I wasn't meant to be happy. Its fucked up but it's kinda true. I've been thru so much BS I'm always waiting to get fucked over again. Bleh.

But I'm happy and living for the moment and it's wonderful  :

fin.
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(no subject) [May. 26th, 2007|05:47 pm]
crazywhite_girl
There is no emoticon that can express what I am feeling right now.

So when I travel I first type out a list of everything I need by category,
then I just go pack all that shit and check it off my list. My mom starts
packing months in advance and freaks out and is like OH MY GOD
RENEE YOU HAVEN'T STARTED PACKING YET?!?!? I'm like dude I need
the shit I'm gonna pack, I'll pack in the morning in like 20 minutes. My
amazing plan has worked every time.

I forgot we are going to Taos on Wednesday for 2 nights. So I gotta
pack separate for that. I won't need sexy outfits or slutty shoes to
go there lol. Probably not any BDSM gear either :)

Anyways, I'm drinking this bad ass all natural ENERGY DRINK from
Trader Joe's. It's good and has a buncha vitamins and what feels
like crack cuz I'm all KWD FKLF NKJDFH KJDHKLJH haha but being
super productive. I'm walking around in my cute new stiletto/pump
type sexy shoes to get used to walking in heels without falling &
breaking my foot. Yeah that happened once, luckily I was drunk
enough to not feel it til morning.

I keep accidentally scratching or hitting my new tattoos and I'm
kinda like ow  but not really. I got my wrists completely redone and
an angel Hello Kitty and Devil Hello Kitty on my forearms. He also
redid my 10 year old rose for free cuz he's fucking bad ass and next
time I will tip him like $985745049785 but I'm taking my mom to him
sometime cuz she's been wanting shit added to her gecko she got
12 years ago. YAY FOR INK!!! <3

So um hmmm. Oh yeah I'm picking up Kenny tomorrow from Santa
Fe cuz he's gonna stay here for a week or 2 to do housework and
yardwork for my mom. I will demand he work shirtless because
he is one sexy hunk of man meat ;)

xoxo
<3
Me
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(no subject) [May. 22nd, 2007|11:49 pm]
crazywhite_girl
Ok I'm gonna copy this after I write it just cuz I might get fucked over again. Dammit I don't even remember what I wrote but both times were pretty long updates! *shakes fist*

So today I woke up at like 6AM all hyper singing Primus' "Too Many Puppies" cuz Jess has 3 dogs that were all jumpin around and I was already in a great giddy mood from all the hot sex we had all night into the morning  :blush: Yes my dry spell has ended!! Holy crap, I don't wanna get into details because I need to calm down and go to bed soon. Seriously tho, wow.  :love: I hope he didn't just wanna hit it and quit it cuz I think I will be disappointed with anyone I have sex with besides him from now on lol.  :love:  :love:  :love:  :love:  :love:

So besides that, my mom was being a major cunt all day and fucking pissing me off. I swept and Swiffer'd the kitchen floor then she IM'd me saying how dirty it was. WTF?!? She was like "I just got a rag and washed the whole floor all over again. Then she wanted me to Swiffer it again. SERIOUSLY OMGWTFBBQ?!?!?  :mad: So I did listening to my iPod, btw Foreigner's Juke Box Hero is a good song to Swiffer to  :P anyways she finally told me the floor looked beautiful so I pleased the evil queen  :whatever:

I have an appt. with my psych in the morning cuz I missed 3 days of work getting drunk. We'll call that an "episode". Plus I've been hurting myself a lot on purpose lately because of fucking rage and agitation. Not like wah wah emo cutting I cut myself to feel alive bullshit, just I dunno it helps when I'm fucking mad. And I'm just weird like that and like pain. So I've been taking a lot of extra xanax to fucking deal with all the bullshit around me.  I think I'll make it all dramatic when I go to work and say I tried to kill myself and put bandages around my wrists just so people don't fuck with me. I'm bored there anyways and haven't pretended in a while.

fin.

What is an emotion between like and love that isn't lust? I am in like with a boy,  I think I love him but I know it's too soon. I don't wanna just fuck him (I do but not just that), I like him dearly more than anyone I know at the moment. So help kthxbye <3
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Boys On Wheels -New Wheels On The Block [May. 22nd, 2007|05:45 pm]
crazywhite_girl

I dare you to watch this without laughing, I made it about 15 seconds in.
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(no subject) [May. 15th, 2007|05:02 pm]
crazywhite_girl
Wow, I'm really happy. lol "I just adopted 30 puppies!!!!" haha. Ok Family Guy moment. Anyways, I am very happy I think I've found the most perfect boy for me. We've only been talking for not even a week but have everything in common. He's extremely into BDSM and very kinky, he's extremely caring and so fucking sweet. He's not addicted to drugs, doesn't smoke cigs unless he's really drunk (like me). He's super hot, cute, adorable and sexy. He lives in Seattle which is where I've been wanting to move for quite a while. He always tells me how perfect and pretty and beautiful and amazing I am :) He has a hardcore foot fetish which I think is funny/interesting. I've never known anyone with a foot fetish but I think that's pretty cool and will be fun  He doesn't think I'm fat he likes thick girls and he loves all my piercings and tattoos he says they make me so much more fucking hot. *blush* Last night (I was a little drunk) but I send him a fully dude picture body shot (which I've NEVER EVER EVER done since  gained 40lbs) and he said I had the most beautiful body. *blush* He is helping me become more confident in myself and believe genuine compliments people give me instead of thinking they are lyin to be nice. So yeah I'm pretty fucking giddy over this boy I really hope it all works out for the best  I'm gonna visit Seattle as soon as I save up a bit of money and can figure out when I should take off from work and stuff. Weeeeeeeeell that's all for now. I like being happy and sometimes I think I really deserve to be happy because I'm a nice person, I love my friends more than everyting and everyone thinks I'm the sweetest, most polite, lovely young lady at work and all my moms friends think that 
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fuck life [May. 10th, 2007|04:20 am]
crazywhite_girl
So it's 5AM. I tried to go to bed at 4 but was laying there being depressed thinking too much so I decided to get back online. Been downloading some music and doing dumb pointless surveys on myspace. Why am I depressed? I hate living in Albuquerque. I've been here almost a year and I don't have any friends. Ok, I have friends that I see when I go to shows or bars/clubs. I don't hang out with anyone. I'm off of work for 4 days so I've been sleeping til after 3PM because I have no reason to wake up. I hate waking up. I say I hate it when I have to wake up early for work but at least I have a purpose that day. I've gotten so fucking fat. Fucking lithium. The doc loaded me full of lithium because after I moved here I was extremely depressed and all I could think or talk about was dying. I cut down by like 75% but haven't lost any of the 40 lbs it made me gain. So being a ham beast makes me more depressed. Then having no will power or motivation to fucking do something about it just makes me feel more worthless. I'm pathetic, I really am. I get serious about eating healthy and being active but that doesn't even last a week. My sternum piercing is hurting, Steve saw it on Friday he said it's a little red but looks good. Fucking birds outside chirping and shit. Argh. I don't know what to do with my pointless life. I've been wanting to go to cosmetology school for maybe 6 months now, I should do that. I wanna be a makeup artist. I'm good at makeup, I love it and it's fun. Too bad I live in a shit state where there are no cosmetology schools. I need to move, seriously I fucking hate this place. But to move I'd need money. To have money I'd need a decent job. My job is decent but I just don't get enough hours. I'm gonna attempt the sleep thing again. If you actually read all this shit I apologize for wasting your time.
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Oh yeah, seven udders of justice [Apr. 27th, 2007|12:59 am]
crazywhite_girl
Yesssssssss I'm happy that Rocko's Modern Life still comes on Nicktoons. I fuckin loved that show when I was little and I love it more now probably because all the innuendos.  ;)

Gosh today was INSANELY busy! I went to bed at like 4:30AM (I took Adderall yesterday) then woke up at 8:30 for no reason. I just stayed up and decided to start my long task of errands. I had to go down to the police station to fill out a police report. Yeah fuck that! That is some tedious complicated confusing shit. I am kickass tho cuz I did it right. Wooooo!! Then I called my insurance company to tell them I got that done and gave them the police report number. They faxed a claim over to this body shop, then I went to the post office to send off a package and a handful of pen pal letters. I called the body shop to see if they got my claim so I went down there to get an estimate. $1600 worth of damage from that fuckass that just backed into my car and drove off. Fuck Albuquerque. That happens ALL THE TIME HERE. Shitheads don't have insurance and don't know how to drive either. Ugh. They should only get cancer. So I'm gonna take my car up there next Wednesday and have a rental for a few days. Luckily my deductible for a hit and run (uninsured motorist coverage) is $250. My car will be pretty and happy again.

I went to Best Buy to check out some speakers since I blew one of mine out. I'm probably gonna go with the 6 1/2'' Infiniti components with the tweeters for the front and then just the 6 1/2's for the back. Infiniti rocks. I had those 6x9s in my old car and they were so orgasmic. I don't wanna get a sub cuz you can see in my trunk and crackheads in this town would probably try to steal it. Those speakers pack a lot of bump tho.

Uhhh I took more Adderall and like totally cleaned/organized my room and bathroom. Did laundry. Wrote a bunch of letters and got a package ready for my Jim. I'm getting pretty fuckin tired now tho. I deciced to have a couple beers to help me relax. Haha I'm all like durrrrrrr right now. It's cool. I had to take a soma cuz every muscle in my body was hurting. Too much stress.

I can't wait for Kink. I'm very excited to go see some awesome suspensions and bondage and crazy freakness!!! I think Amy is gonna go with me still? I hope? *bats eyelashes*  I kinda have my outfit planned out. I just like going to big parties/events like that where I can spend hours getting all dressed up, doing my hair and makeup all bad ass. It's fun. That's one reason why I miss raves. Ahhh those were the days.

haha damn my room is fuckin clean. I got like 6 grocery bags of trash and organized my drawers for makeup and   am starting to actually put things in my new dresser. Instead of just having all my crap piled all over my fucking desk.

Oh yeah I think Kenny is mad at me cuz I took 4 of the Adderall's he had me Fedex to Hawaii yesterday. I was annoyed that I had to go to his dr's office and wait like 45 minutes, then go to Walgreens to pick it up, then go to Fedex. I told him I was gonna take some and he was like NOOO DONT THE GUY PAID FOR THEM ALREADY. Whatever. I was getting irritated so decided to help myself. It's not like I did all that then kept all the fuckin 90 pills. I could have if I was a cunt. I told him to have the fucker call me and take it up with me cuz it's not Kenny's fault his drug mule jacked a few of his precious Adderall's. I didn't have to do all that shit for him, he didn't even seem as greatful as he should have been. Whatev.

Ok I'm gonna finish this beer and maybe uhhhhhhhhh haha I'll find some other little thing to clean.

My sternum is a little more tender and hurty today. It's only a tiny bit red around the piercings but it's just a little sore. It hurts if I push my boobs together, so I won't be doing any of that any time soon.

Goodnight my lovelies.

xoxo
<3
me
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woot Mondays! [Apr. 23rd, 2007|10:04 am]
crazywhite_girl
I'm weird and my work schedule isn't really a schedule so I actually like Mondays off. I can sleep in fuckin late after watching [adult swim] till past 4AM. Then I can actually go shop without massive amounts of crowds of idiots. I did a bit too much shopping last night online. Online shopping is nice cuz it doesn't require parking, dealing with mall douchebag teenagers/wanna be gangsters, waiting in line, dealing with pissy teenage worthless retail employees, etc etc. So I bought a cute rugby tee and super cute baby doll tank and some new nice flip flops from AE last night and found me a free shipping code so yeeeeeyeah   Then today I found some VS codes so got some of the PINK hipster panties I *adore* and a bra top and free lipgloss and free garden lotion bath whatever set. YAY FOR SLICK DEALS!!!

So today I am gonna go try to get to 71 to get pierced by Steve. I want my vertical surface chest piercing right under my tulips. I've wanted that forever and have researched the surface piercing faqs for a long time and I know Steve is the best piercer/body mod what have you in town. He does my


So hopefully I'll be able to do that!! I have a lot of cash now from Kenny repaying me from our partying and eating and what not.


Gotta call State Farm about the fender bender/busted fog light some asshole hit and run in the work parking lot yesterday. Ugh fuck this ghetto town full of uninsured fucking dick pus.

So I'm on the phone with State Farm now. Seriously, they fucking rock. They have saved my ass SO many times from other fucking hit and run (PAIN IN MY ASSHOLES!!!!!!!!) to the uninsured illegal Mexican tramp running me over and breaking my back. Ugh, cars + me + bodily damage that's not my fault =

Well I'm off to uh shop I suppose. Now that my credit card is paid off in full I might as well start charging it up again. am i rite? Ha, being a girl is fun when your vagina isn't bleeding

Oh yeah and I was up at 7:30 cuz Kenny called me stoned and bored from work. He's a silly one.
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Quick update [Apr. 7th, 2007|06:31 pm]
crazywhite_girl
I feel pretty. I only feel pretty when I wear makeup. So thank you MAC for making me feel pretty.

Hopefully I will leave the house tonight while I'm feeling pretty. I called Matt cuz he wasn't at work today. He's drunk and has been cleaning his apartment all day all OCD like. I'm about to call him again to ask if he has plans tonight. If he says he does, this will be the last time I try to hang out with him. I don't understand guys enough. I understand the prick asshole dicks that just wanna fuck, but the genuine sweet ones... I don't know. He told me last night he's really glad we're friends tho. I am also really glad. All I've wanted was to be his friend. Yeah, I am head over heels for him but I am perfectly happy being friends with him and don't want that to change.

I worked a week straight. I have tomorrow off. Jesus was good for something! har har

I'm gonna call Matt again in a few minutes. God he's so cute. He smells so cute. I need my Matt hug for the day. lawl, god I'm drunk. Came home from working a long ass INSANE Saturday and just started drinkin my Jack. Ahhh Mr.Daniels, you are a pal. But you fuck me over a lot, that's ok. I still love you in the end.

I done a bad thing. Fucking myspace and other evil sites. I feel a little hypocritical and guilty because I have 100% access to total hotness. That's ok right?

Ok guys, hope you all have a happy eggs and chocolate and bunny day. P's niggaz.

xoxo
me.
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Arizona & other tidbits [Mar. 31st, 2007|07:10 pm]
crazywhite_girl
So Prescott, Arizona is quite a town. It's getting VERY popular, it's population is growing hardcore. So you get the expensive, UGLY, $300,000 houses in a snotty community full of SUV driving wankers. But the town itself is really great. I loved it because people there were NICE and FRIENDLY and not fucking RUDE ASSHOLE MORONS like you have here in Albuquerque.  But past 9PM you are on your own. I actually learned a lot of really cool history. I didn't learn textbook history for shit in school because I was bored and didn't give a fuck. I don't remember boring shit. If I find it interesting I will remember it. Call me a weirdo. So I learned some cool shit about back in the day when Lincoln was prez he sent a buncha people to Prescott cuz they had found gold. People were doing many bad, bad, BAD things. Lots of murdering and awfulness. There were dead bloated bodies floating in the river and people hanging from trees like Xmas ornaments. See, that's my kind of history. There was also a tribe called the Smoki. It was made up by white people and they did ceremonies and went all out to make it look authentic. They had hundreds of dances and costumes and filled the huge rodeo stands for over 75 years in a row doing their thang. I would have never known it was made up if I hadn't read about it in the museum we went to. It pissed off the Hopi indians because they thought they were mocking them but the Smoki's truly had no intentions of doing so. That brings up a huge thing in my head that I'd rather not get into. Just racism.

We went to this old historic saloon called The Palace that was originally built in 1877, it burned down. They hauled the original bar and the ice box out into the street and kept serving drinks while they watched their saloon burn* down. HOW COOL IS THAT?!?! They started rebuilding the next week and it's there today with the original bar and ice box. Very awesome place. We had the coolest most awesomest bar tender there. She is my new BFF!! She kept making me taste these Katie conconctions that she had made and got me quite drunk. They started rebuilding the place the next week. So yeah, they had a lot of really awesome artifacts like an old glass bottle of morphine. Interesting shit.

Ok no more tidbits. 10 hour drive back home sucked balls yesterday but we made it back and I had today off thank god. I have to work tomorrow. I think I might call Matt to see what he's up to tonight cuz I feel like being social after a long family trip. KBYE!!!!!!!
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Arizona & other tidbits [Mar. 31st, 2007|07:10 pm]
crazywhite_girl
So Prescott, Arizona is quite a town. It's getting VERY popular, it's population is growing hardcore. So you get the expensive, UGLY, $300,000 houses in a snotty community full of SUV driving wankers. But the town itself is really great. I loved it because people there were NICE and FRIENDLY and not fucking RUDE ASSHOLE MORONS like you have here in Albuquerque.  But past 9PM you are on your own. I actually learned a lot of really cool history. I didn't learn textbook history for shit in school because I was bored and didn't give a fuck. I don't remember boring shit. If I find it interesting I will remember it. Call me a weirdo. So I learned some cool shit about back in the day when Lincoln was prez he sent a buncha people to Prescott cuz they had found gold. People were doing many bad, bad, BAD things. Lots of murdering and awfulness. There were dead bloated bodies floating in the river and people hanging from trees like Xmas ornaments. See, that's my kind of history. There was also a tribe called the Smoki. It was made up by white people and they did ceremonies and went all out to make it look authentic. They had hundreds of dances and costumes and filled the huge rodeo stands for over 75 years in a row doing their thang. I would have never known it was made up if I hadn't read about it in the museum we went to. It pissed off the Hopi indians because they thought they were mocking them but the Smoki's truly had no intentions of doing so. That brings up a huge thing in my head that I'd rather not get into. Just racism.

We went to this old historic saloon called The Palace that was originally built in 1877, it burned down. They hauled the original bar and the ice box out into the street and kept serving drinks while they watched their saloon build down. HOW COOL IS THAT?!?! We had the coolest most awesomest bar tender there. She is my new BFF!! She kept making me taste these Katie conconctions that she had made and got me quite drunk. They started rebuilding the place the next week. So yeah, they had a lot of really awesome artifacts like an old glass bottle of morphine. Interesting shit.

Ok no more tidbits. 10 hour drive back home sucked balls yesterday but we made it back and I had today off thank god. I have to work tomorrow. I think I might call Matt to see what he's up to tonight cuz I feel like being social after a long family trip. KBYE!!!!!!!
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sweet [Mar. 14th, 2007|05:03 pm]
crazywhite_girl
I finally got to the stupid bank to deposit my last 2 paychecks. It's nice to not have $20 in there anymore! That makes me nervous cuz getting a $9348670947 overdraft charge is total rape. I wrote my mom a check for the DS she paid for at Costco since I don't have an Amex card. Now I can go crazy impulsive obsessive and buy more games. I just called Nintendo tech support, THEY ARE AMERICANS!!!!! , super nice cool guy told me a bunch of shit I was confused about so now I'm even more excited to get in on the WiFi action. *creams @ incredible technology* I'm such a gamer tech freak.

Yeah, totally need to go wash my ride since it's filthy and it's partly sunny and an amazing 78* outside. Then it will rain mud tomorrow.
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Those shoes are mine betch! [Mar. 10th, 2007|07:17 pm]
crazywhite_girl
So I got a hamster last week for my birthday. Her name was Clementine and she was a precious little thing. She died 5 days after I got her. I was very sad, but she died in her sleep I'm guessing. She was probably sick when I got her and I had no idea. Petco has a 15 day guarantee on all their pets so I went and exchanged her today. I felt kinda weird exchanging a dead hamster but it sucks for a new pet to die not even a week later!! So I got a different kind, I got a dwarf and she's real cute and funny. Clementine was always freaked out by me, she wouldn't let me hold her or touch her. My new baby, I named her Betch, crawled into my hand and let me hold her while made me really happy Hahaha she's a crazy little monkey gymnast! She is doing the monkey bars on top of her cage with her little arms. Then she'll fall. It's so funny and cute. hahaha she falls down then keeps doing it. Cutie. I'll take pics later.

So yeah my birthday was cool. Memorable and whacky. Haven't heard from the "gay" guy. I've really been enjoying the loaded iPod. I went and bought good earphones at Target today and I bought Brain Age for my DS which I thought looked awesome the first time I saw the commercial for it.

Hmmm what else. Oh yeah I talked to Matt again at work yesterday and told him about the insanity that was my birthday. He told me about the times he's blacked out drunk and woke up somewhere weird and that he has puked in the backseat of his car 4 times. HOORAY!! So I told him about the time I got way drunk in my car before a movie with this guy and puked in the seat next to me and passed out for the whole movie. Yay drunk idiot stories. He got off before I did and I didn't see him so he didn't  get my number. meh. Maybe next time. I'm glad I finally decided to start talking to him at least. lol Josie asked me if I scored. Haha silly old ladies.

I'm gonna go watch Borat now. Yeah finally. I've had it like 4 days but haven't watched it cuz I fucking suck. Then I can quote shit with Nick all the time. I love Nick. I've been talking to him like 4 hours a day which makes me the happiest girl in the world.  This is sooo sweet ----> http://www.zombiecowboys.org/Renee
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DIABEETUS [Feb. 11th, 2007|04:46 pm]
crazywhite_girl

Once again I have not written in here in a very long time! My new year has been pretty good I suppose. I've been working a lot which = money so that's nice. I wanna get a pimp sound system for my car. Then ghost ride the whip. hahahaha NOT.  That's one of the most retarded, unfunny things I've ever heard of. Anyways tho. So yeah, I miss my sweet system in my old car and I need to be able to play MP3s and stuff. The factory system for my Matrix is decent but it's not what I'm used to. So that's what I'm gonna be investing in for now.


I have a new friend who is pretty cool. He messaged me from Facebook and we've hung out and stuff a few times this week. He has a funny radio show and wants me to cohost sometime. I like his voice emulator, waaaaay too much fun. He's kinda strange in some ways tho. Like everyone knows I think I'm fat and bleh and like we were laying down and he grabbed my tummy and said "This doesn't bother me." and was saying how he doesn't mind my fat and is poking all my fat. WTF?!?!? WHO FUCKING DOES THAT?!?! WHY WOULD ANYONE DO THAT TO A GIRL!?!?! Seriously!!! He made me cry and I was like dude don't fucking do that. And he was poking all my fat and talking about how if I lowered my lithium I'd lose all the weight back that I gained from it. But yeah, I don't want anyone poking or talking about my stupid fucking fat. That's nice he likes me for me and doesn't care but still. AM I RITE?!?! And he's one skinny mother fucker so I dunno what to poke. Maybe his bones.


So uh I took Billy for a nice walk at the park today and talked to my grandma. We're gonna go have lunch tomorrow. My mom is in Mexico. I had to take her to the airport at fuckin 4AM yesterday. That sucked. I slept about 2 hours and then had to work all day. I wanted to die.


Anyways I'm cooking some salmon and I have 4 movies I need to watch before tomorrow at midnight so I better get started on that. Love you all

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Let's get some shoes [Dec. 20th, 2006|02:18 am]
crazywhite_girl
These shoes cost three-hundred dollars
These shoes cost three-hundred dollars
These shoes cost three-hundred fucking dollars
Let's get 'em.

If you get that then MAD PROPS to ya. Who the fuck came up with "mad props" anyways? I don't know what it means if I actually think about it. Srsly. *sigh* I like being drunk cuz I'm silly and hurrrrr and not shy. I wish I could be like this sober. I haven't done anything exciting tonight, just sitting here drinking skyy vanilla.

So anyways! OMG IT SNOWED AAAAAAAAALL FUCKING DAY!!!! Being from central Texas I am not used to snow. I love snow. It's so amazing and fucking beautiful and pretty. Seriously, it makes everything gorgeous and a work of art. Even the trashcan and this old tarp laying in the yard looked pretty My mom woke me up fairly early to open my window and tell me it was snowing. I woke up and looked outside and wanted to go take pictures. We walked to Cup O' Joe and I was oh so happy happy happy! Got some cappucinos (sp?) and I just stared outside in amazement. Some people hate snow or don't care about it cuz they're so used to it but imagine if you lived in a hot humid climate where it was normal to be over 100 degrees for everyday for 3 months straight. Yeeeeeeeeeah. SNOW ROOOOOOOLZ!!! Also, on the walk home I was incredibly shocked and baffled to see Albuquerque drivers slowing down because of the weather. x 1000. It was incredible I took pictures for future reference that maybe they aren't as fucking retarded as I thought they were and the instant bad weather hits they think "OMG LET ME DRIVE AS FAST AS POSSIBLE!!!!" hahaha.

Aaaaaaaaaaanyways here are just a few pictures that I took today. Enjoy











k I'm going now lol druk bye!!!!! I LOVE YOU GUYZZZZZZZZZZZZZZ! <3
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I <3 MAC [Nov. 30th, 2006|07:40 pm]
crazywhite_girl

I've been waiting for MONTHS for the pigment holiday/dress set to come out. It finally did. I was gonna get it online but it was sold out. Drats!! I called the mac counter at Dillards and they had ONE left in cool. I was gonna get both the cool and warm sets but if there is only one left in the universe for sale and it's cool I am gonna fuckin get it! So they held it for me and I rushed down there. I'm soooo happy. MAC pigments make me happier than almost anything.



*drools*


I got my first paycheck yesterday! It wasn't mindblowing or anything cuz it was only for 10 hours, plus they took out $15 for an apron I didn't get. But it was still exciting anyways. I was gonna do a little bit of shopping but just got my hair cut. It's too cold to be getting in and out of my car right now. It snowed yesterday morning and I was all like cuz I haven't seen a lot of snow in my life. I like it  


Ummmm hmm what else... hmm yeah I don't know. Besides work I haven't done shit in the past 2 weeks really. I'm going to OPM tonight. I want to find a boy and have a silly crush again. My crush on this one guy went away really fast cuz he was kinda boring and too dorky for my taste. So whatever.


Oh yeah since we got cable I religeously (?) have started watching nip/tuck again and I am pretty confused. If anyone watches it- Who the fuck is that James bitch and what is her story with Michelle? I have gathered they take peoples organs to sell on the black market or whatever but I'm still confused. If anyone can help me out that would be awesome. kthx

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adorable hilarity [Nov. 28th, 2006|04:26 am]
crazywhite_girl

Adorable and hilarious. I couldn't ask for anything better.
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yeah work sucks [Nov. 19th, 2006|05:37 pm]
crazywhite_girl

Work sucks cuz my feet and back hurt. I hate that the most. This one supervisor is such a fucking twatty cunt but everyone thinks so too and we all hate her so it's ok I guess. She's fucking retarded too so she doesn't get when I'm being a sarcastic little bitch to her but am saying nice things. Heh I like stupid people sometimes. I just hate how her glasses make her eyes look HUUUUUUUGE, it freaks me out when she looks at me


Oh yeah if I didn't mention I'm working at CostCo now doing product demos and stuff. Yesterday I was training so I worked with this kinda cunty lady doing samples of pumpkin pie. CostCo *seriously* has the BEST fucking pumpkin pie ever. Then I was with this one twat that everyone also hates. I dunno, both of them are weird they are stupid and rude and have these power trips but sometimes they are nice I guess. I don't really understand but whatever. So today I was expected to know everything and know how to do everything and where everything was. Like I'm fucking psychic. Yeah I'm sorry but if people don't tell me that shit I'm not gonna know god dammit!  Thankfully there are some *very* sweet and nice old ladies I work with and they are very helpful. I love them. This lady named Mary is soooo cute she's like 85 years old I love her I always pat her on the head and call her "Little one"  I like how they all call me sweetie and dear and hun. I like being the kiddo of the group. ANYWAYS today I did everything on my own and set up my cart station thingie for Nestle Hot Cocoa. I had to use a fucking frying pan. Yeah, it was pretty ridiculous. Who the fuck makes instant hot cocoa in a fuckin frying pan?!?! I finally got it down tho after making a total of 6 gallons today. I gave away 575 samples. It was interesting, heh.


My fucking feet hurt bad, I need new shoes that will be comfy for standing on all day. I've had these for like a year probably. My mom said we'll go get me some new ones on Tuesday


So anyways, yeah so I have a job now and I've definitely had worse less paying jobs in the past so all the bullshit I have to deal with here I can handle so it's all good. I can't wait for my first paycheck  It will all go to my car insurance


kbai


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FUCK COMCAST!!!! [Nov. 14th, 2006|02:36 pm]
crazywhite_girl

 Seriously. Fuck them. Fuck them in their ear.  These 2 idiot douche bags came to install our cable TV and internet last night. They basically didn't know what they fuck they were talking about, lied and made up all this bullshit that wasn't true. Comcast wasn't even fucking working last night, it was down so I had to call them (calling customer service/tech support is one of my top 5 things I HATE doing, cuz too many people are fucking morons) to set our modems up. I did my moms just fine, it took a while. Then I went to set up mine and it didn't work so I had to call them AGAIN. This guy was like "Ummm you can't have 2 modems on one account. That's not allowed. They shouldn't have done that, I don't know why they did." GREAT!!!!! Now what the FUCK am I supposed to do?!?! At least we still have our DSL which I am using now until I have to go out and buy a wireless router and card for my computer. Such a fucking pain in the ass. Seriously, they've fucked up this much already and we haven't even had service with them for 24 hours yet.  


Ugh but in other news, I believe I have a pizza date with the amazing  tomorrow. YAY! Chicken and bacon pizza, we both love the same kinda pizza cuz we're both fucking bas ass. Aw yeah. I'm excited! We were planning on getting all dressed up like we were going to a fancy restaurant but my fancy beautiful japanese dress doesn't fit me cuz I'm such a fat ass.  Stupid abusing ex boyfriend and medications and depression and stress. Bleh. ANYWAYS fuck it. I'm planning on going back to the gym and I've already started eating more healthy. Only 280 calories so far today.


Oh but at least our cable TV works which is blowing me away. No more fucking with antennae and watching TV thru static. I got to watch [adult swim] last night. omg I finally get to watch nip/tuck tonight even tho I think the season is half over and I don't know what's going on. I think Matt was trying to fuck Kimber the only one I saw this season.


Well I'm gonna fuckin COPY all this before I save cuz lately I've been getting fucked big time with journal entries.


Oh yeah look at this cute loving picture of my favorite crazy hardc0r3 awesome DN girl-


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nipplez!!! [Nov. 9th, 2006|01:00 am]
crazywhite_girl

OH MY GOD FUCK THAT!!!!!!!!! I just bitched about this long entry I wrote earlier then fucking DN bitch slapped me and went down and deleted it all. Then just now I was re-writing everything and it straight up fucking dissapeared!! WTF?!?!?!  Fuck that.


Ok no more details then *shakes fist*


I got my nipples pierced last night. I love . She is the sexiest janitor I've ever met and we will have much fun on NiggaSpace.com and eat chicken & bacon pizza next Wednesday.  I fuckin love that girl. YOU HEAR THAT MISS JANITOR!!! Thank you for holding my hand and playing Red Light Special.


I got a job today. At CostCo. I rock.


I get to see Dave tomorrow. He's so hot. We're totally gonna make out. If he touches my boob I'll probably punch him in the balls. Just a reflex. Freshly pierced nipples don't wanna be touched. Especially mine. They don't hurt unless I accidentally bump them or something.


the end.

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Halloweeeeeeeeeeen!!! [Nov. 1st, 2006|10:20 pm]
crazywhite_girl

Yay my Halloween was fucking awesome, I didn't expect it would be so rad. I wanted to just go downtown to scope out peoples costumes and stuff. My mom wanted to come too so just me and her went down there pretty early at like 8 so of course it was lame. There was this Rout 666 thing goin on in all the clubs and bars and you had to have a wristband so we ended up buying some cuz we couldn't go anywhere without one.  First we went into Ned's where Budweiser was promoting so I got free beer. Fuck yeah! And all these cool little bat keychains and mardi gras beads and blinky light necklaces.  THEN Captain Morgain was up in the promoting shit too so we got MORE free drinks! YAY! Then my mom started talking to this really tall handsome doctor from Uganda. They danced and it was awesome to see my mom having such an awesome time. That made me happy  So we bar hopped and he tagged along. Bought us drinks. Woot. Ok now for peeeeeeeekturez!!



My mom and I, I dig the special Halloween Bud Light bottle







OMG that Captain Jack Sparrow was FUCKING HOTTTTTTTTT!!!!!!




That's my awesome new friend Amanda. She kicks ass.


So on the way home there was a stupid DWI checkpoint which kinda freaked me out cuz I was pretty drunk and I didn't know what they did at those things. I just had to not move my head and follow a flashlight with my eyes. It was a pain really but I passed. *whew*  Then we got home and I made a delicious sandwich and passed out.


IT WAS SO MUCH FUN!! It's funny I was with my mom and she had a bad ass time too. Definitely one of the most fun nights I've had since I've been in Albuquerque. The end

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psychos!!!!! [Oct. 25th, 2006|01:57 pm]
crazywhite_girl

So I guess Doug finally felt comfortable enough with me to break it to me about how fucked up he is. I've had a great time with him this whole time, he is so sweet and caring and great and we get along and he has made me happy and giddy.  We were gonna hang out last night at 9:45, then he said 10, so one of my myspace friends wanted to go get a drink somewhere. This was at 8 so I went and did that. He was cool, we drank and bitched about crazy ex's and people and bumfights and being total computer geeks. It was good times. Then Doug finally calls me at 10:30 and I tell him I'm chillen at a bar with my friend Justin. He sounded weirded out but I left to go pick him up. So he's texting me while I'm going over there and I was texting with Justin too. So Doug comes over and he's all upset and pissy that I met someone from myspace to have a drink with. It's not like we're together. I told him I wanted to meet friends cuz he's the only person I hang out with here. I wasn't being a bitch at all even tho he was being extremely unreasonable and ridiculous. So he goes outside to smoke and is gone for a long time, he was talkin to his best buddy about me and whatever. Then I get a text message from Justin so I go to check it and Doug's like "ARE YOU TEXTING?!?!??!! Ugh fuck this Renee, no fuck this I'm outta here." and storms out. WTF IS THAT!?!?! Yeah he told me he's in love with me but those jealously issues are a bit much dont you think?? Gah I didn't do anything wrong at all! He was like "What if you called me and I was at a bar with a girl?" Um I wouldn't care. Having a drink and talking is innocent. I've talked and drank with my fucking grandma. So whatever. I'm sad kinda cuz he was cool but now I know he's pretty fuckin crazy messed up.


WHY DO I KEEP GETTING INVOLVED WITH PSYCHOS?!?!?!?! Seriously!!!!!! At least Justin is cool and wants to hang out some more. I asked him straight up if he had any fucked up issues or was psychotic. He seems pretty stable to me as of now but whatever. We'll see.


I went to the mall today to shop cuz that always makes me feel better. This guy came up to me, one of those people trying to sell magazines to get points for them to do something special. But we ended up talking for quite a while. He thanked me for being awesome and friendly and having a personality which is rare in this town. We joked about psycho ex's and stuff, it was cool. I ended up buying a subscription of Disney magazine for a childrens hospital and he said since I was awesome he'd renew my Maxim, Stuff and throw in Penthouse cuz I'm the shit. Aw yeah. I do good for charity for getting porn. What a win/win situation!

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ok so I'm leaving now? [Oct. 19th, 2006|07:33 pm]
crazywhite_girl

Numerous things are keeping me from leaving. So once again I'm saying FOR SURE I'm leaving tomorrow. Friday instead of Tuesday. I seriously was gonna leave this morning but I ended up going to Round Rock and getting hit by a giant shit fuck hail/rainstorm so I didn't wanna drive all the way back to Riverside. Especially when people drive like ASSHOLES when the weather is bad. More then usual. I dunno why, fuckin idiots.


But I chilled with my Laura for a few hours and went on a crazy adventure in the minivan. Then we ate fried chicken and gossiped for a bit. I love Laura, I'm not on her top 8 (4, 24, 62, whatever the fuck) anymore but she's still one of my favoritest ladies.  Once again I still planned on leaving at 9AM this morning. I swung by Bens at around 10 and ended up drinking some whiskey then beer then whiskey (no I didn't puke! yay!) and it was still really stormy out so I just crashed there. Then when we were in bed fuckin Brian brings fuckin 15 people over at 3:30 in the morning. That was a bit crazy. So I drank some more beers and I think I went to bed at about 5ish? My alarm went off at 8 but Ben had just crawled into bed and was like "Noooo, the weather is TERRIBLE and the taffic will be terrible it's a TERRIBLE time for you to leave babe." ha, basically cuz he wanted cuddles. I can't turn down cuddles. Especially Ben cuddles. I know I've been all weird emotionally about him forever but he's still my Ben. Always will be. Even if I'm disgusted with him for being a smelly slobby boy  We chilled today and got Thundercloud and watched Survivor then I came back to Jesse's and took a mothafuckin shower cuz I reeked of smoke and once again didn't shower or brush my teeth or wash up cuz all my shit was down here. But he helped me get my bed piece in my car and gave hugs and love and I only cried for about 5 minutes driving away from him once again. It killed me when he looked at me and pointed to his eye, crossed his heart, then pointed to me. (I <3 you). Good thing I'm on xanax now so I gobbled that up as soon as I got here to help with me being all emotional and ballistic. Thank you Xanax <3


So I've got my map and am planning my routte for tomorrow morning. I'm gonna be hardcore and just drive all the way at once. It's a comfortable 2 day drive so I think I can handle an uncomfortable 16 hour drive. Maybe it'll be faster. I'll load up on energy drinks and maybe stop at truckstops to get some speed from truckers or whatever good shit they've got these days!  (plz don't believe everything I say fools)


Oh yeah some of Janette's angry messican friends were here when I got here and made me feel uncomfortable cuz I was like "Hi! I'm Renee!" and they didn't even look at me and kinda mumbled "sup" or something. It's tough being white these days.  So whenever Jesse gets home I'll have some BFF talk with him cuz he's the shit and I love him bunches. He's rad for letting me stay here this long and the whole mi casa su casa.


I've typed enough for one day. Bye loves. Keep me in your thoughs and wish me luck for my long journey ahead!!

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IM COMING TO AUSTIN IN CAUTION TAPE!! [Sep. 26th, 2006|11:42 pm]
crazywhite_girl


I had some fun with some caution tape and the camera. What??? 

Also-------- the most IMPORTANT thing is Renee will be in Austin on October 9th, 2006. That is the plan as of NOW. I have already notified many niggaz via text message. I have a list of people I *must* see while I'm in town. Please respond if you are on this list letting me know if you are down for some crazy white girl action-
Ben (confirmed)
Gary (confirmed)
Jonathan (confirmed)
Jon
Margaux
Lizzy
Patti
Miranda
Andrea
Laura
Will
Zach/Jordan
Heather (confirmed)
Justin -jmac-
Jesse (confirmed)

THIS IS A ONCE IN A LIFETIME THING FOLKS!! At least until
I move back when I dont know when the fuck that will be!

*deuce!*

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ah HA!! [Sep. 26th, 2006|07:09 pm]
crazywhite_girl

Ok, so I txt the guy who let Doug use his phone to call me on Friday. I asked if he knew anyone named Doug from Thrifttown and he was like "who's this", I told him I met Doug at OPM on Thursday and I think he lost my number. So blah blah blah I told him to give Doug my number next time he saw him (oh yeah they work together) and tell him to call me. I've been all stupid girl since we were supposed to go out for sushi and saki on Sunday and I didn't hear from him. I've been hoping he'd call me but I really think he misplaced my card. I hate seeming like a psycho bitch staring at her phone for days waiting for some guy to call but he *really* was awesome. I don't like people unless they are awesome. Because I'm awesome.  So hopefully maybe tomorrow they'll both be at work together and he'll call me. Gah I sound so lame haha. I blame margarita


I'm bored so if anyone wants to send me weird/funny/whatever text messages/pics you really should. I love txting!  512-784-3155

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Colorful Colorado peekturez <3 [Sep. 14th, 2006|03:06 pm]
crazywhite_girl



Just pulled over driving somewhere near Durango I think and saw this beautiful stream on the side of the highway.



Rifle Falls



Behind one of the falls, it was awesome I hiked up behind them there was this little cave. I wanted to sit there for hours. I <3 waterfalls.





The 3rd largest fish hatchery in the nation. I was pretty amazed, it was nuts!! They have millions of fish that they raise then let go in all the streams, rivers and lakes in Colorado. Very cool. Oh and we got to feed the fish, it was insane they all jumped around like crazy trying to get at the food it was VERY amusing!



I believe this was Independence Pass outside of Aspen.. Anyways driving up there was quite a challenge. Crazy windy NARROW roads. It was a little scary at times but the top was 15,000 feet. I almost died barely walking because there is NO air up there. Extremely beautiful though. The color of the sky up there was so incredible I've never seen that color before.



A ghost town from the 1800s. Seriously, look at that sky!


*sigh* I love Colorado. I'd much rather be living there with no friends than in this ghetto shit hole of a city. Yeah fuck Albuqueerque.

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This copy of Windows is not genuine [Sep. 8th, 2006|08:51 pm]
crazywhite_girl

You may be a victim of software counterfeiting.


BLEEEEEEEEEEEH DUUUUUUUUUUUHHHHHHH. I'm not one of those people that likes to pay craploads of cash I don't have on a fucking piece of shiny plastic in a box. Yeah poop on that. So this warning keeps popping up all the time telling  me to get a genuine copy of Windows. No thanks. Anyone know how I can get it to stop harassing me?


So Robin is a freaking weirdo. And the sky is freaking blue. Well actually it's night time now so it's black. heh. Anyways so he started crying again earlier and I asked him what was wrong and he always says he doesn't wanna talk about it. Then a few minutes later starts talking about it and it's so dumb but I don't bitch at him because he's such a pussy. He was just like "What are we gonna do?" He is worrying too much about way in the future because I wanna go back to Austin some day. I wish he could just live for right now. He worries about that way worse than I do. I just kinda like having someone to spend time with and hang out with and cuddle with and ya know the other thing that happens after cuddling sometimes. I think I liked that part the best *giggles*. So he left tonight and said this was the last time he would see each other because he'd just love me more and more and later it would be harder to "break up", even tho we're not dating even tho it kinda seems like it. Whatever tho, I really think he'll text or call probably tonight saying he misses me and he'll be over here again soon. He's more than likely moving back to his moms by the end of this month he says and that's waaaaaaaaaay out in the back ass end of Rio Rancho. I hate driving that far but I dunno whatever I'm not too upset I'll get lonely again I'm sure. Thank god someone invented fun thins that vibrate.


In other news we went to the State Fare today. I did a lot of squeeling and almost crying because I saw 5 day old pygmie goats, baby piggies, a baby cow, baby chickies, baby duckies, puppies.... omg cuteness overload to the max. I am so in love with baby animals. I want a baby pygmie or dwarf goat sooooooooooooo bad. My mom said she'd like for us to get a goat to mow the lawn haha. I wonder if she's serious because I would love it nothing more. *squeals*  Everything was so fucking expensive, I remember when carnival food and stuff didn't cost $9 for a turkey leg. I bought one anyways, it was aaaaaawesome. Funnel cakes were $5!!! I worked at the funnel cake booth at Eeyore's Birthday like a thousand years ago and they cost $2.50, oh those were the days.


I've been sitting here long enough for my ass to hurt so kthxbai <3


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we gonna go back, waaaaay back [Jul. 3rd, 2006|02:33 pm]
crazywhite_girl

So I was looking at all my 3409857430975 pictures on Photobucket and thought I'd post some fun old pictures. Pics are good.



Damn I miss having that body, I've really let myself go since then.



Mmmmmmmm fuckin tasty. I could go for another, it's been a while.



THAT WAS PAINFUL! *shakes fist @ Texas sun and no trees at ACL Fest*



red, white and blue. I'm so fucking patriotic



I miss Larry. He slithered out of his cage and ran away



@ the Sex Museum in Amsterdam. This is one of my favorite pics of all time.


 

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stop squeezing my brain! [Jul. 3rd, 2006|12:43 am]
crazywhite_girl

Yeah my fuckin brain hurts. Along with my body.  My mom says it's this somethingmetric pressure of the air. And the weather changing. And my arthritis. I am an old fucking lady.


Ugh I want someone to walk around with and hold hands and give little kisses to. I just miss being annoyingly cute with someone. Everyone always said we were a really cute couple. I've always been down with PDA.  I haven't talked to him in a while, he only calls me asking for money. dick. My depression has gotten much better and my brain is working more properly. It just feels like someone has it in a brainlock. HA. Ow brain stop that hurts!


Oh yeah I dyed my hair randomly at like 2AM. It's PINK again. HOORAY! I love pink!



I like the length of my hair now. It took for fuckin ever to successfully grow it out to a decent length. I like being able to put it in a ponytail or pigtails or just UP. I kinda miss it being short and spikey sometimes but I had it like that for like 3 years I think.


I put a stereo in my room and hooked up my XM player so I have music in here now and not just listening to peoples myspace profile songs. haha. Ugh I feel shitty.  My body just hurts really bad all over  <----- What is that hookah stuff called that you smoke? It comes in different flavors. I went to The Zone and smoked some strawberry whateverthefuckitis a few weeks ago. That was fun, I should go back and try another kind.


GOODNIGHT I love you all!

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just the 2 of us, just the 2 of us JUST YOU AND I [Jun. 17th, 2006|02:48 pm]
crazywhite_girl

Just me and my Matrix. That's all I need. 


My mom is REALLY buggin' me. She is being overly emo and cunty and it's getting on my nerves.  She was a bitch to me when I was trying to get a car. She's a bitch to me every time I drive because I go fast to avoid getting fucking hit. She's a bitch to me about my "weird crazy" friends. She's a bitch to me because I *have* friends. She's a bitch to me about leaving a single beer bottle in my room. She's a bitch to me about the way I walk, talk and act. I'll stop now.


I dyed her hair today and bought her a nice present at Linens 'n Things and she's STILL being a bitch to me! WTF?! Because I finally don't want to die and I'm not crying myself to sleep she is pissed. I knew this was gonna be hard, us both being bi-polar and crazy. She is way more insane than I am. She has quite a few years on me. She just doesn't understand my generation, the piercings/tattoos/body mods. She is OFFENSIVE!! I don't gawk at her wrinkles or age spots. Ah well. At least I can fucking leave because I have a vehicle now <3


Oh yeah I got a tattoo last night, I forgot if I mentioned it or not. Lemme get a pic or 2 off my phone....




It's Bubble Gum Pink! I love it. It hurts a lot to walk cuz my calf muscle is all sore so I'm gimping around. I need a cane.   woot.


I LOVE HOW CHEAP EVERYTHING IN NEW MEXICO IS!!!!!

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Renee sleepy [Jun. 16th, 2006|11:28 pm]
crazywhite_girl

I <3 Vickie. She's the funny and gave me a tattoo that says... *looks at arm* "Stitch-xoxo-I <3 Renee!"  Awww!! I randomly ran into her at Hardware. WHAT ARE THE ODDS?! This town is microscopic! I keep running into people I know and I've been here 3 weeks. Ha.


Then I got a real tattoo. It's fucking awesome. Pics later.


VICKIE IF YOU READ THIS PLZ SEND ME THE BLOODY PIC!!!


I fucking love my car. It's amazing. Seriously, the only "con" it got in reviews is the engine is loud. I LIKE THAT!!! I love to go vrrrrrrrrooooooooooooooom and leave everyone miles behind in a matter of moments.  I need a road trip.  I wanna go back to TX but not yet. Maybe Colorado. That's not very far at all. Who wants to come?


Im making homemade macaroni & cheese. Renee hungry. Renee sleepy. Renee sore.


bye bye then.


ex oh ex oh

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it's been a while [Jun. 16th, 2006|06:07 pm]
crazywhite_girl

This is what I've been up to in the Abq.... 





         

and then I got one of these babies!!!!....


cept mine is newer, has less mileage, metallic grey and cost about 4K less \m/  THANK YOU PERFECTION HONDA! <3

This is what you'll see before I run your ass over....


*deuce*
xoxo
<3

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mine!!!! [Jun. 16th, 2006|03:46 pm]
crazywhite_girl
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DO EEEEEEET!!! [Jun. 14th, 2006|02:40 pm]
crazywhite_girl
1.Your Full Name: (no need to put the real thing in here if you don't want to)
2. Age:
3. Single or Taken:
4. Favorite Movie:
5. Favorite Song:
6. Favorite Band:
7. Kinky or Clean:
8. Tattoos and/or Piercings:

HERE COMES THE FUN ... ... ...

1. Do we know each other outside of the internet?

2. What song reminds you of me?

3. Would you have my back in a fight?

4. Would you keep a secret from me if you thought it was in my best interest?

5. What is your favorite memory of us?

6. Have we ever been drunk/stoned together?

7. Would you give me a kidney?

8. Tell me one odd/intresting fact about you:

9. Would you take care of me when I'm sick?

10. Do you want to tell me something that you couldn't before?

11. Have you heard any rumors of me lately?

12. Do you/have you talk(ed) crap about me?

13. Do you think I'm a good person?

14. Would you drive across country with me?

15. Do you think I'm attractive?

16. Are there ever times when you want to call me but don't?

17. If you could change anything about me, would you? what would it be?

18. What is the best advice you can give me?

19.Would you come over for no reason just to hang out?

20. Will you post this so I can fill it out for you?
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